Slow Results

 Slow Results

This blog has been created to talk about my life and struggles with weight loss but in the process I found myself sharing more about my life because it helps me to navigate life and the challenges that comes with weight loss. 

August 12, 2025 a memory showed up on one of my social media platforms of August 12, 2017 and I literally couldn't believe my eyes. It showed a larger frame person (me) and the constant decline in weight loss and when I put the new picture up it couldn't compare to the person I am now. 

I am super proud of myself!!!! 

I do get tired of trying but I keep moving, I do get tired of eating right but I keep doing it, I like who I see in the mirror when others do not. I love the confidence I have now and it is not because anyone told me I looked nice. It's because I put in the work... the hard work!!! 

The Journey is not for those who would like to be weak, it is for those that have a mindset to endure. so if you see me in the street and you forgot what I looked like it is okay. 

If you see me in church and you don't seem to grasp who I am and I might have to remind you it is okay, I'm not even mad because truth be told, I don't care for you to know who I am anymore because you didn't know me then and you don't know me now! 

I know many people reading this will say, "I'm being mean, rude, and not caring at all but I must admit when I did care my result was not what I wanted them to be because I was more worried about what others thought and so my weight regained but to get to the point where I am now is because I stop caring what they thought and focused more on what transpired to me. 

I am enjoying the result I see and although slow is the way it is worth it all! 

                        2015-2017                                                             

2025  Grand Total as of date 263 lbs.

I am forever grateful, I have more work to do and I will keep going, I want to be able to wear articles of clothing without a shaper and I'm on my way!!! 

My Winning Life is still WINNING!!! 

Life has been Lifin'

Life has been Lifin' 

July 24, 2025 - August 2, and the days to follow... 

My life was turned inside out and out and in... 

My life will never be the same and has been transformed in a way that I couldn't have imagined. I never knew a hurt like this one and it is so indescribable. 

 I will never forget this morning as long as I live. 

I was in a deep sleep, I vaguely heard the phone ring but I saw a flash come across the phone. I pick it up to read that I had missed my sister's phone call. I called her back and to my surprise what I heard next has played in my head over and over again. She says, "Sis I got Nesha at the hospital and She is none responsive." I replied, "What do you mean, She's None Responsive?" The conversation continues and although the next fleeting moments will change the trajectory of my life forever it is still so hard to believe that you are Gone from this earth. 

You just 33 years old and the many, many lives you touched in such a short span. I remember hearing your bonus mom Carol say something as she gave words of encouragement to your family and friends that Jesus himself was only 33 years old when he left this earth. After reflecting your light was something incredible and that spoke volumes to me and how both of you have changed lives for the better. 

It is hard to move into this new normal without you being here and my heart sinks when I think of your children and your parents, My Sister & Your Dad. I know God doesn't make mistakes and life just has a way of reminding everyone how precious life is and to make great memories with the time we have been given. When I looked across the audience the day of your service.  I remember casting my eyes of the large crowd that gathered to pay tribute to you in some way recalling memories you shared with them in their seats quietly. 

The Eulogist Moderator Davis said something as well that resonated with me and that was  "YOU LOVE AND GAVE MORE THAN YOU RECEIVED FROM EVERYONE!!"

I partially agree with him because your children, parents, and a slight few gave you unconditional love and I count myself to be among the few that you knew without a shadow of a doubt that you knew that our love was genuine and pure towards you without you having to give us anything to give back to you. I am aware of instances with some of your friends and so call-friends that the statement was true but know they're feeling the hurt and the sting of losing you and wish they could get one more moment with you to shine love unto you one more time. 

I will always treasure our lasting conversations not knowing it will be our last but I'm glad you know that Auntie and Uncle was looking forward to you and everyone being in our home for a little while. 

I love you and I know you are looking down the banister of Heaven ... 

Rest in Love my sweet and phenomenal TT Babygirl ... Nesha! 

I loved you to life and now I love you for eternity!