The Disappointment

 Wow

I can't believe today 8 months into my journey and I gained 3 pounds. My doctor was not disappointed but was happy to see how well I took the news. I am still making progress and now I now what I need to do to make this work. 

I knew it was coming because for the past few days I had not eaten properly. I had cravings of sweets and that is not like me and I didn't get sick. I am still under 250 pounds but I got to stick to the plan. 

Many people on social media that don't have health issues stated has stated they want to get on the shot because they see everyone else getting on it, but what people don't realize is that most of the people on the shot are fighting for their lives everyday and has had a constant battle with their weight from the beginning. 

If you think people like taking shots to be healthy you are sadly mistaken. I'm tired of people and their myths this is a disease and I'm taking it seriously because I had Many, Many health factors that forced my physician to place me on Wegovy. 

I'm not knocking the little person that thinks they need help losing weight but think about the morbid obese person that is having many challenges before you go taking this medication. 

We didn't choose this life, this life was given to us! 

We didn't stuff food in our mouths and ate in excess! 

most were born in this life of food... We were told to clean our plates because our parents were poor and maybe that meal was going to be the only meal we were going to receive and it was a hardy meal. 

most were born in this life of food... We were taught how to prepare high fatty, fried foods, with lots of breads to accompany the meal. Foods with plenty of pasta's because that was all the family could afford. 

most were born in this life of food... in low poverty areas were there was nothing but fast foods and it was cheaper to eat out than to eat in for a home-cooked meal. 

most were born in this life of food because parents fought everyday and food was the comfort that siblings could find because of lifestyle. 

Whatever drove them to the life of food remember this addiction was started from something traumatic in that persons life. 

Let us not be judgmental of those that is trying to get it together.  

I have to continue to tell the inner me the following...

I am Pretty...

I am going to be okay...

God has me...

don't allow others to speak negativity into my life...

don't hold myself hostage to my past...

I will make it to complete my journey ...                              (in every area of my life)

I will not self sabotage yourself... 

I am ENOUGH!!! 

This might not mean much to you but it means everything to me. I affirm myself, because when I look to the world and to others they didn't love me back, so excuse me if I feel this way concerning other people and their treatment to FAT and Obese people because it is an insult to think WE Don't Try!!! 

The life that continues to Win... 

Spring23

 Spring23

Sometimes in life, you think about not completing the task because you can see a major difference in the way you feel. You think because you are doing great and feeling well, you have arrived when in fact you are really at the beginning.  

I was afraid to try Wegovy but I have been on it now for one month and I have continued to loose weight. I went to see my doctor for my monthly follow-up and I have loss in one month 10 more additional pounds and I'm super excited. 

March 22, 2023, I weighed-in at 243 and now I'm down under 250, I started my new dose at 1.7 mg of Wegovy. I can tell this month will be different because I'm already full. Today, I have been on this dosage for one complete day and I have not be eating as much as I thought, my intake is close to 1,000 calories, and my carb intake has been little to nothing. 

I do eat healthy and have a balance meal full of high proteins. although, it is hard at times to eat full carbs without getting sick but my father reassures me, I'm on the right track. 

He only eat meats and vegetables with "NO Bread" He weighs about 180-190 if he weighs 200 pounds he immediately cut out his bread intake. My father is 74 years of age, his height is 6'0" and looks as if he is 60 plus years old. 😂

 This starts a new chapter because I can see my new goal coming closer into view. I am even starting to think about my ending weight loss goal and how I will maintain it once I complete the journey. 

(I'm not getting the cart before the horse, just thinking) 

The American Heart Association would like for a woman my height to weigh-in at an average of 168 or less to be consider heart healthy. This includes your BMI is under 25. 

I can vaguely remember weighing 168 pounds when I was a teenager but never as an adult. I'm not even sure at this time that I want to be this small but I am sure that I want to be closer to 180. 

Most might think it's to small for my height but it's a great size for me. 

Remember, it is not what people think about you, 

You deserve the Best You and this is without the Negativity!!

Here's to Marching into Spring 10 pounds smaller...

The Life that continues to Win!!! 

 

Thirty (30) Years Ago

 March 21, 2023 

 Thirty (30) Years ago, I was 20  Years old and I was married with my first born. 

I believe at this time I weighed after giving birth 200 pounds but I was in a dress size 16W or 18W. 

In those days or moments in time, I was coming straight out of high school, I didn't wear form fitted clothing and most of them were plus size because they didn't make fabrics were it had the ability to stretch. Therefore, most of my clothing was purposefully loose fit and came from the plus size section of the store. 

Several days ago, something changed once again that I noticed, I'm sure you are about to guess what it is? That's right ladies and gents... I was able to go into a department store more than one and began to look for clothing on the Junior/Misses section of the store. Although, I'm not 200 pounds yet, I'm closer than I have ever been in my life and I can't believe that I can actually wear some clothing from this section on the store.

It is mind blowing that I am able to do something that I have been told that I could not do by others. I am making history even to myself and those closest to me. I am very proud of me and I'm sure and I know they are very proud of me. 

I have my monthly doctors appointment tomorrow but I will talk about that another day but here is to continuing a health journey and not allowing the stigma of others to change your mind about how they wanted you to look or fit into their minds and worlds. 

I am breaking barriers and I am conquering... God has me on the right path and that is all that matters. 

Past failures, Past Predictions, Past People just the PAST in G E NERAL will have you in a place that you think you can't let go but trust me when I say... LET IT GO!!!  

DO NOT HOLD YOURSELF ----- HOSTAGE for NO ONE --- NOT EVEN YOURSELF!!! 

Three Little Words

Three Little Words 

I was going to wait until St. Patrick's Day to write this post but why should I wait. You have waited most of your life for things to go well for you and you do not always have to wait. 

I just wanted to take the time today and to let the world know three little words: 

 

I LOVE YOU!!!! 

Life has been harsh and you have overcome so many obstacles in your life and now being 50 and a few months you have seen just how much the struggle of weight loss has really been in your life. Lord, you have been so good to me 

First Thank You for loving me when I did not know to love myself

When I was depressed, you still loved me

When I thought I didn't have any friends, you still loved me

When I was losing people that was a branch in my life, you still loved me

When people came into my life that didn't mean me any good 

When illness came and attacked my body, you still loved me

Today, I love me... 

Today, I cherish everything I have been through to help me get to where I am today!! 

I am who I am today because You knew what was best for me!!!

In the words of  Fantasia, 

"It was Necessary"