Hard Day

 Hard Day

    May 23, 2023 - One of the hardest days of my life, I took for granted that even someone that I cherished would effect me in the way that it has. You think it would be easy and you think you would see the signs, you think that you would be ready and you would be okay. 

    We get so busy sometimes and you realize later that you might have seen the signs but just dismissed them totally because you don't really want to come to grips that it is really happening or just don't want to face the facts that it will happen just don't know when, how, or what matter that it would take place. 

    Most people would say, "It don't take all that!", "She is just putting on!" "Who Cares!" "Just get over it!"... I will when, it is time and the process I'm sure want be long but I do have compassion for family, friends, and animals. 

    I had my dog for 13 years and in human years he was 74 years old and I could not believe it had been literally a part of a lifetime that my furry friend, my little bonus son Rex had been a part of my life. 

    My life will be a little different but I'm glad to know that he has been the best friend I have ever had. My life without him will and has changed already, when I awake and I looked over to his bed and he is not there it hits me that he will not be coming back. When I get home and he is in his cage while we are gone to work, and with his big huge bark that greets me and now it is silence it let me know that he isn't coming back. 

    When I look out and look down by my legs and he isn't sitting close to me it reminds me he isn't coming back. I will never find a replacement for him and I know that every dog is different so I will end with this little message to all that read. 

Cherish your family

Cherish your friends

Cherish your fur babies 

 The memories they leave behind will be the lasting ones you take with you!

Something New

 Something New

    In this crazy world, some call it just life, some say learning, and others would say were have you been.  I have been around for sometime now and I remember so many things that are more clearer to me than ever before. 

    I was raise in the deep south and there are certain things that I wasn't able to do growing up and now that I'm around different cities, environment and sceneries things have changed but there are some things that have remained the same. 

    Several weekends ago, I went into a department store and I purchase several bras without trying them on. I didn't ask if I could try them on because in my earlier childhood days that was something that black women wasn't allowed to do. It didn't come full circle to me until the next day, I was back in the store and the sales attendant said, "I could actually try the bra on!" I asked her to repeat what she said and she repeated it. I told her, "I was shocked, blown away with amazement that I could try the bra on." She was surprised or stunned that I even had that kind of response. I further went ahead and told her that I didn't want her to loose her job because she was going to let me try it on and her response was, "No, we let you try them on all the time, We want you to leave a satisfied customer." She continued on and went to the back of the store and found my size and asked me to give those a try. 

     I didn't not return the first set of bra's because I gifted them to someone that could have benefitted from them and it was their size too so it worked out perfectly for everyone and they were happy to receive them. 

    I am aware that in the past most people during so many different times in history thought that black people had all kinds of diseases and that it could be put on other people like the black would rub off onto another person and they would be that same color, which we know that is not true. 

    I remember being told about spiritual connotation associated with transferring of spirits to one person to the next when trying on clothing. I was taught to wash all personal items and undergarments before wearing them because of this message that was taught to black families and it was passed from one generation to the next. 

    I must admit I did not try the bra on against my skin but I did again what I was taught to do and that was to try it on; on top of my clothing that I had on which again was something that I was taught because although things changed over time I was allowed to try the bra on but it had to be over my clothes and I also remember my mother standing in the door while the sales stood away but also looking at my mother to make sure that I didn't get out of my blouse that I wore to the department store.

    I remember these things so vividly and now that I'm older and things have changed, I couldn't believe what I was hearing actually get out of my shirt and allow this bra to touch my skin to get a perfect fit... Wow!!! I'm not sure if the deep south is allowing you to try on a bra now skin to skin but I commend this department store for knowing that we are equal and I don't have any kind of diseases that would affect anyone else. 

    Although, I didn't step completely out of my comfort zone when I tried the bra on but can truly say that I was opened to the change that I experienced and that I was treated with dignity and respect. I will definitely shop and patronized this department store again. 

Great Experience and Great Customer Service!!! 

Bummer

 Bummer of a day

I haven't posted since April 19, 2023 concerning weight loss because I'm doing great, sometime later this month I will sit down and give you an account of just how much weight I have lost since my last post but today is a little different. 

I just want to share my heart and my feelings concerning something that is greatly disturbing and I guess since we have come from a Pandemic and so many people dying and the continued cycle of illness in all sorts of ways you would had began to think people had a heart and they cared about the way each other will be treated. 

Today, I want to talk about Mental Health and how it plays into your weight loss journey

I have never shared in this blog of my other obligations and responsibilities here is a short list of those I would like to share today! 

I'm a wife, I'm a mother, I'm a full time student, and I currently work Part-Time but it does seem like Full-Time employment because of the position that I work in... 

I serve my family, church and community!!! 

I wear many hats!!! 

I'm sure you do too or you know many other people who do!!! 

I have worked my behind off, with keeping my health on track, keeping my grades current working as if I was a Full-Time employee and last but not least taking care of my darling husband along with our Adult children that have been model citizen and we are very proud of them. 

Let me just say this is not a reflection for anyone but my heart was broken when I found out that I didn't mean as much to a certain sectors of my life. Now, that I understand just how people in certain areas of my life feel about me, I know how to proceed with my plans for my life. I thought it would be forever but unfortunately, I see what God is really trying to show me and I need to stick to the plans He has for my life and not get distracted. 

What does that have to do with Weight Loss (I'm glad you ask?) 

When things, issues, problems, disappointments come up in your life sometimes your weight reflects that situation. I'm glad that I allowed God to show me just how things are and I truly know how to deal with it now that it is visible. 

Let me say this without going into detail: 

I was so embarrassed, I pray it will never happen to me again, I don't like being in a place that I'm not wanted or made to feel as if I'm not suppose to be there. It has been a very long time that I have felt as if I didn't belong but today was sure one of those days. It literally felt as if someone was messing with my psych' but I refuse to allow anyone to do that to me so I will remove myself from those types of situations. 

We all go through so much every day not to feel as if we are 

Acknowledge, Welcomed, Loved, Supported, Affirmed is so needed  

I didn't eat myself into a sick mess for one the medicine I'm currently taken will not allow me to even think of the notion but the ole me would have done such. I'm glad that even if I had to cry tears of being heartbroken because of the situation that it was short lived and I will not waddle in it!!! 

Today, I was hurt but I have to much Love in my heart to let that Stop Me!!! 

Thank you to all of you that tried to hurt me!!! 

Thank You to all that tried to stop me!!! 

Thank You for trying to break me!!! 

You continue to Keep Pushing ME to Greatness!!!