Slow Results

 Slow Results

This blog has been created to talk about my life and struggles with weight loss but in the process I found myself sharing more about my life because it helps me to navigate life and the challenges that comes with weight loss. 

August 12, 2025 a memory showed up on one of my social media platforms of August 12, 2017 and I literally couldn't believe my eyes. It showed a larger frame person (me) and the constant decline in weight loss and when I put the new picture up it couldn't compare to the person I am now. 

I am super proud of myself!!!! 

I do get tired of trying but I keep moving, I do get tired of eating right but I keep doing it, I like who I see in the mirror when others do not. I love the confidence I have now and it is not because anyone told me I looked nice. It's because I put in the work... the hard work!!! 

The Journey is not for those who would like to be weak, it is for those that have a mindset to endure. so if you see me in the street and you forgot what I looked like it is okay. 

If you see me in church and you don't seem to grasp who I am and I might have to remind you it is okay, I'm not even mad because truth be told, I don't care for you to know who I am anymore because you didn't know me then and you don't know me now! 

I know many people reading this will say, "I'm being mean, rude, and not caring at all but I must admit when I did care my result was not what I wanted them to be because I was more worried about what others thought and so my weight regained but to get to the point where I am now is because I stop caring what they thought and focused more on what transpired to me. 

I am enjoying the result I see and although slow is the way it is worth it all! 

                        2015-2017                                                             

2025  Grand Total as of date 263 lbs.

I am forever grateful, I have more work to do and I will keep going, I want to be able to wear articles of clothing without a shaper and I'm on my way!!! 

My Winning Life is still WINNING!!! 

Life has been Lifin'

Life has been Lifin' 

July 24, 2025 - August 2, and the days to follow... 

My life was turned inside out and out and in... 

My life will never be the same and has been transformed in a way that I couldn't have imagined. I never knew a hurt like this one and it is so indescribable. 

 I will never forget this morning as long as I live. 

I was in a deep sleep, I vaguely heard the phone ring but I saw a flash come across the phone. I pick it up to read that I had missed my sister's phone call. I called her back and to my surprise what I heard next has played in my head over and over again. She says, "Sis I got Nesha at the hospital and She is none responsive." I replied, "What do you mean, She's None Responsive?" The conversation continues and although the next fleeting moments will change the trajectory of my life forever it is still so hard to believe that you are Gone from this earth. 

You just 33 years old and the many, many lives you touched in such a short span. I remember hearing your bonus mom Carol say something as she gave words of encouragement to your family and friends that Jesus himself was only 33 years old when he left this earth. After reflecting your light was something incredible and that spoke volumes to me and how both of you have changed lives for the better. 

It is hard to move into this new normal without you being here and my heart sinks when I think of your children and your parents, My Sister & Your Dad. I know God doesn't make mistakes and life just has a way of reminding everyone how precious life is and to make great memories with the time we have been given. When I looked across the audience the day of your service.  I remember casting my eyes of the large crowd that gathered to pay tribute to you in some way recalling memories you shared with them in their seats quietly. 

The Eulogist Moderator Davis said something as well that resonated with me and that was  "YOU LOVE AND GAVE MORE THAN YOU RECEIVED FROM EVERYONE!!"

I partially agree with him because your children, parents, and a slight few gave you unconditional love and I count myself to be among the few that you knew without a shadow of a doubt that you knew that our love was genuine and pure towards you without you having to give us anything to give back to you. I am aware of instances with some of your friends and so call-friends that the statement was true but know they're feeling the hurt and the sting of losing you and wish they could get one more moment with you to shine love unto you one more time. 

I will always treasure our lasting conversations not knowing it will be our last but I'm glad you know that Auntie and Uncle was looking forward to you and everyone being in our home for a little while. 

I love you and I know you are looking down the banister of Heaven ... 

Rest in Love my sweet and phenomenal TT Babygirl ... Nesha! 

I loved you to life and now I love you for eternity! 

 

2025 Welcome Back

Welcome Back 2025....

I have been off my page because if you are keeping a record like I do concerning this page a lot took place at the end of December and the first of the Year of 2025 and I can attest to it had me in a place of a slight depression and although death will come for many of us, I just wasn't ready at the time to share with anyone how I felt concerning those loved ones because it looked like it wouldn't stop raining in the clouds. Please forgive me for not sharing with you but moving around in silence is sometimes a good thing to do and it allowed me the time and freedom to grieve the way I needed to grieve and to navigate a new normal. 

 

January Highlights

I had another blessed birthday and wedding anniversary. I'm so proud of us we have officially made 10 years of marriage and although, I'm not talking about my age on this platform but if my memory serves me correctly there might be a picture that I can say is wonderfully blessed with 50 plus years and times around the sun. Life has been different at this age but I have been dealing with a back issue but I'm seeing a chiropractor but it is having little effect, I will keep you posted. We have a new president which is also a convicted felon serving as the commander in chief Donald J. Trump, I sincerely hope he does what needs to be done to help fix the economy because although inflation is down people still need help.  He is coming in with a swiping agenda that will hurt millions but we will see how go it works first. I have enjoyed sharing this month with my immediate family on their birthdays as well. 

Lord, bless we will do it again!!! 

February Highlights 

This is the love month and I have been surprise with all of the that I have received, from my husband and although I gave to others, he never cease to amaze me concerning valentine's day.  It is black history month and I have seen things this time that I can't believe is happening in this world, Elon Musk is Trump's right hand man although we have a vp for that but its not working to his advantage. 

My world needs you right now in the words of Kirk Franklin. 

If we ever need the Lord we need him right now! The price of goods and services are steady rising and people are beginning to struggle with the price of things going up! Eggs are at a all time high and now there is a upcharge per egg so business can stay open and it is being passed to the consumer. 

The stock market is going crazy more downs than ups! 

Many Federal jobs and workers are out of jobs so therefore many people will be relying on the government soon to help them find new jobs or they will be on public assistance, or no assistance at all. ... Lord, Help Us All- Everywhere

Let's Talk about Weight Loss 

Since, my back begin to cause trouble for me in January, I have had many different types of medication and I have gained a few pounds like about 7 -15 more pounds. I have gone from 225 to 237 I haven't been able to afford my Zepound and I recently found out that I'm no longer a candidate for weight loss surgery at this time but I might be in a few more months. The current weight for weight loss surgery is 240 pounds but I'm really close.  We will see what happens and I will keep you posted. I have a new team I'm getting ready to work with out of Saline and I hope this works with my insurance because I'm tired of the struggle. 

Special Accolades

Plan to be sick of me since I'm back... 

I am still very proud of my accomplishments and what I have achieved but 

Doing life without this guy in it is unimaginable

He has been so supportive and so willing to be in my corner

We have each others back and this is much his degree as it is mine
Yes, I did the work but his support and encouragement pushed me into another level of love for him. 

We have gone through a lot together but when it comes to support I think we are truly the definition of it! 

We fight in the spirit

We fight in the natural 

We fight together

We live together 

We Grow together

He is still excited about my future endeavors and I for him!! 

I still can't believe that after all we have been through we still have joy!!

When they told us NO, we believed God for a Yes!!! 

For our Faithfulness God has given both of us a Yes!!!

for the things we have asked him for and we couldn't be more happier with how things have turned out! 

We still have more things we are asking God for a Yes and I believe they are Yes, and Amen!!! 

Thanks Honey for being a part of the Yes for my life!!! 

    

April  6 

- I believe was the last post I made concerning weight loss and trying to play catch up because life had been really lifin' Well let me say those craving that started held me so hard that I gained about 7-10 pounds. 

I began drinking zero count soda's

I ate pasta's 

I had bread's 

I  had a huge craving for Laffy Taffy's which was horrible because I was eating about 2,000 calories of just those a lone. I went to see my doctor and when I showed her what I was doing she gave me other medications to try and help with but unfortunately it didn't work. I know for many that are keeping up with my weight loss journey the question is did I make my May 14 deadline and the answer is a firm NO

I am somewhat disappointed but then too I'm not because I did all I knew to do to help me but I could not overcome the noise that took me into June and after several months it has finally calmed down. 

June 5, 2024 I had a sick spell but I do believe it is because I was placed back on the compound of tirzepatide which is a generic formula of mounjaro, when I went back to the doctor my A1C was elevated and my doctor felt this was the best way for us to get me back on track. I weigh in at 225 when I was closer to 212 several months ago. My goal was to be under 200 by May but it is not the end of the world, I will keep trying and after I had the sick spell with GERD also in April I believed I would be okay with not making it to the goal because I felt so bad and I didn't wish that on anyone to have reflux spasms that severe.  

June 6, 2024 - I do feel better although I started drinking Pedialyte and I began to feel much better than I did earlier in the week. I felt really drained and I also took my vitamin D that I'm suppose to be taking once a week but unfortunately I have not since I believe April. 

Let me now go back to why I haven't been on top of my blogging. I will reveal at this time I have been attending college. I had worked in public schools for many years and God allowed me to impact many student lives without properly being certified and I must say that was a blessing within itself. Many years have passed but my desire was to get my degree and after talking it over with my husband I adventured the Fall of 2022 on getting my Associates Degree and on May 14 I walked across the stage proudly not being the oldest in the crowd because the oldest was a nursing student that was 63 years young and the youngest was 15 years old I was given my case confirming that I had meet all the criteria of the state and the university to be awarded my AA Degree. 

I will continue on for my Bachelors, Fall of 2024 and I believe in 2026 I will be writing you again saying I have finally finished that leg of my collegiate journey. I believe you can. I have had many hurdles and my family has been through so much together and I just believe that I can not give up on my desire to have a college education. 

Happy Birthday Son

 ~You Are My First Born  … A Bouncing Baby Boy given to me this day~

First, I would like to start this blog with saying Happy Birthday to the young man that made me a mother some 32 years ago and I pray you have an amazing day. I spoke with you this morning and you shared with me your plans for your life at 32 and I want you to know that whatever and however you plan to do your life, "I remain supporting you whole heartily".  

You have been through so much in your life and although that has not been an excuse for you but I'm glad that you are having the conversation with God and it seems you are listening. I will forever keep praying for you and your siblings, you guys and gal are my greatest inspirations, my motivation  and my love for you is not a victim of circumstance it actually is a tool for me to keep pursing my dreams even in my young mature years because: 

EVERYTHING IS POSSIBLE IF YOU BELIEVE!!! 

I will close with this: 

Jeramiah 29:11  - Let's us know that God has a purpose for our life and God knows the plans for our lives we just have to be able to hear and listen but most of all walk out those plans that Jesus has for us. 

I love you son, Many more Blessed, Prosperous, Birthday's 

You make me proud to be your mom...

You ARE ENOUGH!!! 

Catching Up

 April 9, 2024

Wow, where to begin... since my last accountability on my blog so many more things have happen that I failed to include in this journey of my life. I will try and make an attempt today to catch up on me and what has happened since January 16, 2024. 

First, I would like to thank God for allowing me to the opportunity to turn a year older. I think I have done well even with the weight loss and I'm pressing forward. I'm still doing what I need to do in order to make things possible. I'm still doing my insulin resistance but I can tell when the cheaper version of my medication wears off because now I'm hungry and the cravings are picking up and I'm having a hard time getting them under control. I literally bumped myself up by half of another injection in order to turn off the noise in February and I don't recommend unless consult with your doctor but I did and it worked for me. Now in April I decided to act right and the food noise is back and I feel as if I'm loosing the battle. I will see my doctor soon and hopefully I will be back on track. 

I would also like to add that in February I had a horrible sick spell wear I found out that I have GERD. I have to eat right and there is no way from getting around it and I don't ever want to feel that way ever again. I could literally feel the acid in my throat and it burned so badly. I guess that is why I didn't record  anything because I was so sick and I had to get myself together and that meant to change my way of eating all over again. I'm not sure if I'm doing it but a lot has changed. I fall off this wagon recently daily now that we are in April and I have to pull it together by May 14. 

At the current moment my eating habits include all high protein such as seafood, bacon, ham, oatmeal with fruit and raisins and last but not least collard greens. I am praying for light foods due to the GERD that makes me realize very quickly I have eaten the wrong thing. I have been craving sodas and everyone should know that they are truly bad for you but even though I have been doing coke and dr. pepper zero's I have found myself drinking cherry dr. pepper and it hasn't been a zero although they do make them. 

I also have found myself craving sweets such as cakes, and donuts mostly. I think when I started craving bread mainly biscuits from a particular establishment compliments of my husband I feel things going backwards and the food noise was initiated. 

I have to get the cholesterol down and keep my A1C also down and back to normal but it is going to take a lot of dedication and sacrifice if I'm going to make my deadline for graduation. 

I'm back to keep my record to help me hold myself accountable for my choices. I don't want to be a statistic so I will keep doing what I need to be doing to keep me from that fate. 

I would like to see all of my grand children and great-grand children in the future and I believe that I will be in good health, prosperous as I continue on this journey. 

I will continue and tell you about what else I have experience because it has been a life changing experience to me. 

I will tell you all about it in the next journal report of the winning life.                                                                                                                      

Many More

Today (9), Nine Years ago, I joined ...

My life was so different back then and was so unstable, and I needed someone to hold me accountable for the choices I was making.  

Don't get it twisted; I was working on me even back then. I was looking for someone who was whole and complete, not knowing that life is not always that way. 

I can't believe that on this day nine years ago, you decided to make me your wife, knowing I wasn't perfect. I had and continue to have many flaws, but I strive to make a difference in my everyday journey. 

I know you are not perfect, but you are so special to me, and I couldn't do this life without you!  

I only have a little to say in this post cause there is much more I could tell, but it would take more time than what I have today. 

Here's to Life...

 

Here's to Love...

Family 2024

 Family

Today is January 9, 2024

 I can't believe that we are already close to double digits this month. January has always been extra special to me because it is my birth month, not just for me but for all of my immediate family members. 

My father leads us off as if he should, then I'm next, my mother, and last but not least, my identical twin brothers. This mixture of the family has always made me feel as if we have a connection that is and has been identified in my life as extraordinary and special because I believe in my heart that we have a connection that is closer than many because God saw fit for us to all share this month as a true celebration of life, love, and happiness. 

If someone reading this thinks I wouldn't talk about the ups and downs and the great moments in life that we have shared and think it is all peaches and cream, then you are sadly mistaken, but through it all, we are blessed to be close and strong as a family. 

Many families don't have what we have, and I thank the Lord. God has seen us through many of those trials, and it didn't destroy us as a family. 

I pray a special blessing over our family today with the words of one of my favorite scriptures. 

Numbers 6:24-26 NKJV 

"The Lord bless you and keep you;

The Lord make His face shine upon you, and be gracious to you; 

The Lord lift up His countenance upon you and give you peace."

Happy Birthday, Family, 

I love each of you and wish nothing but the absolute best for each of you!!

Having Hope While Letting Go!!!

It is always hard to just let it go, especially when it is someone you love. 

One of my cousins has pinned the phrase best, "My first tears of 2024!" I must admit, I didn't see this one coming at all. 

When I saw you last, I was leaving to come back home from Thanksgiving at Mom's, and I stopped over as I would often do, not knowing why the urge that came over was so different than other times. 

Now, know why because you would not make it to see 2024. 

Many memories flood my mind as I remember the many tasks we have done together that bring a big smile to my face. I'll never forget the summer I came over to spend with my grandparents, and why I didn't bring enough clothes. I'm still trying to figure that one out in my head, but that was the year I learned how to sew without a pattern. 

You had some beautiful fabric, and we made several outfits together. I was ever so proud of myself, but to see the big smile on your face when I came out with the finished product, "I knew I had created something worth wearing. I did make some mistakes, but you never once got upset with me; you showed me how to take the seam out and try it again. I loved my little headband that I made, and I thought I was something. I made about 4 outfits with matching headbands. I will never forget that summer and the many other summers that I spent with you. It helped shape the woman I have become in so many ways. It taught me how to help my children, who are adults now, and I pray it will help me be an amazing grandmother one day. 

You and your family have many memories etched in my mind, even all the way back to Dumas. Seeing you at your mom's house, Mama Shirley's, and your brother tossing me up in the air as high as I believed the trees. Big Huge Laughs bellowing out. 

I'm going to miss you. heck, I'm missing you right now, but I realize you are not suffering anymore, and you don't have to worry about what others are thinking concerning your health and weight. You always had the most humorous way of explaining to me what was going on with you, and I'm glad you shared that information with me because you wanted me to be educated on it. It was helpful, and it was taken to the prayer room of my heart. 

I love you then, I love you now, and I will love you forever, Aunt Debra, the mother to many who didn't really understand their mothers. You have been an Amazing Surrogate Mother! 

Rest Well, which I know you are because you believed and were a woman of FAITH & PRAYER! 

Good Bye 2023

How can I sum up 2023 other than Amazing?

I'm grateful for everything that happened in 2023. I have experienced many joys, deep hurts, and pains. 

I have accomplished a lot, all while going through many adversities. I have seen many things that remind me to keep pressing towards my goals and don't stop for anyone. 

I have made many new connections and what I consider friendship for life. I have made many close connections that could have led me astray, but I kept my cool and made sure I remained focused on the main goal. 

I can't believe the reconnection of a family dynamic that I thought was gone, but I always say, "God has a sense of humor, and he laughs at us." 

I'm celebrating all of the friends that I made, even through this blog, and you go with me through my ups and downs. You have always been right here, and I have felt your prayers; I have felt your hurt with me as I went through. 

I must admit that I have been out celebrating 2023 here at the end of the year, and I haven't traveled with my laptop, but let me tell you: You have been on my mind. 

I'm under the weather, I didn't test positive for COVID, but I believe I had a touch of the flu. I will not be out in the air because I have to be back at work when this holiday is over, but just know that I am thinking of you in the new year. 

At my last doctor's appointment, I smiled because I lost an additional four (4) pounds 

Let me say this, to sum up, 2023, 

THANK YOU for the winning life, love, and support. 

With you, I managed to get all of this completed.