ROLLER-COASTER RIDE

         Roller-Coaster Ride

 Why haven't I lost any weight this year in 2020, I know one reason is because in January when I thought I was going to get back on track, I had a death that was close to me. The man that I was married to and gave two children died and I went into a depression stage while trying to play a role that I was strong. I was upset, sad, because I was suppose to be celebrating my wedding anniversary, an accomplishment award from my job and last but not least my birthday all of it ended, canceled with one phone call. I went into mother mode to protect my young adult children and making sure they were alright that I immediately put me on the back burner instead making sure we all went through the death process together so when they all left and went back home that I was alright too, but again that didn't happen. 

I began emotionally eating, not caring about what I ate and when I ate it. All of my goals throughout the years where out the window and you know what I didn't even care. Some of you would say, "You were grieving, You were doing the best you could!" I do understand but I should have been able to shake it off faster but I thank God for my husband because he could see that I was having issues and he help me through it and saying good bye to my past freed me and I can say "I'm FREE!" 

MARCH came in 2020 as a MARCH 

A Virus that came in and many say that it was in the United States way back in January but it was in many cities it was killing their love ones. We shut down mostly everything and I was home. I can't believe we are home and I hadn't been feeling well at all and I went to the doctor to find out that I had a sinus infection and it put me in the bed for about three months and I wasn't able to do basic function because my allergies were so horrible. I couldn't hold my head up without my head swimming, my ears hurt, my throat was almost raw. Most of my coworkers had the flu and we had shut down for that prior to the COVID19 action that was taken by our governor. I went to the doctor almost two time in a month, sometimes every week...I even went to specialist to receive a pill that was suppose to be for migraines but that wasn't what was wrong with me ...I took one pill and my brain felt like a blooming onion and I immediately stop taking it and began to Pray to my heavenly Father asking him to heal me and he did and by May 2020, I was healed. I had four rounds of antibiotics and four rounds of steroids and I gained thirty pounds although the doctor was pleased to see that I didn't gain more and I couldn't be more pleased. 

I know you have heard, "April Showers brings May Flowers" and it does do that but my allergies from outside wasn't going to let me out my house. I went for a walk around the block in my neighborhood and the next day I my eyes were pink so now I'm putting allergy eye drops in my eyes and I wasn't able to go outside and walk and enjoy the good outdoors. I began trying to figure out what kind of exercises I could do indoors but none of them was something that I really wanted to do because I love being outside but outside wasn't loving me back. I just tried to walk around in the house and if we went out of town I made sure that I could walk long distances from my vehicle to the building I was going too. 

May came and I finally went outside but I was limited to just my home and no where else unless I was driving and I was so happy to be driving that I was some of everywhere for several months. 

June & July was still the same ole same o' thing because now we are wearing mask and I have been making them since March and I found myself enjoying making mask. I got comfortable about being home and sewing. I've made more than 1000 and just giving them away to people young and old. The end of July, I was alerted to the knowing that I will be going back to work in August. I can't believe it when we don't have a vaccine and I'm around people that everyone will be telling everyone to put their mask on over their nose and mouth most of the day. I kinda laugh about it when a friend-girl sent me a cartoon article, how we would look after the first few months of being back. 

I have so many mask to make now and get ready for every little person I see and especially on the big yellow. 

August 2020 comes in with a BANG! 

I wasn't ready for what I was going to have to deal with and not really understanding or not knowing if I would return but unfortunately I did! I don't live in "FEAR" but I do have knowledge of how viruses operate and it's important to have your mask on and do all of the precautions that have been given as directives. I don't feel that were I'm working is doing its best to keep things sanitized properly. I do believe that if we had more people sanitizing that I would be more comfortable about my time on my job... Can you say STRESSFUL! 

This is some of the reason why my weight wasn't doing well, but I'm getting back on it!

 Do you think I can let me know, what you think? 

Thanks for hanging out with me today! 

The Winning Life 2k2k 

How to Explain

THIS BLOG STARTED IN APRIL! 

I DID HAVE SOMETHING TO SAY IN THIS

 APRIL POST BUT FOR SOME REASON 

I WASN'T ABLE TO FINISH THIS POST BUT 

I WILL EXPLAIN KEEP WATCHING!

My Exodus Period

Hello Everybody 

If this is your first time reading my blog let me say "Thank-You!" 

Today and its 2020! 

This is My first Official Post of the New Year and I went to go see my Physician and I was so Proud of myself because I stayed focus through the holiday's and I made it without any weight gain as a matter of fact I'm happy to report that I'm 135 pounds smaller and I only have 30 more pounds to my first weight loss goal since the double pneumonia that placed me on strict bed rest and off work for almost a month! 

I can finally see all of my hard work paying off, I have been discouraged throughout the years but I'm finally able to be happy for me.

I no longer allow people that talk negative about my weight loss process! 

I encourage them to get a process going for themselves. 

Most of them have reason why they can't but all I see is more motivation for myself to keep going strong to keep going hard, and harder everyday! 

My Day started with jumping 80 times with my jump rope

While at work I take my jump rope and when the break bell rings I go and jump 30 times for each break! 

I'm moving every 45 minutes and I starting to feel better! 

Once off work, I find the nearest track and I stay there until I finish my

 10,000 or more steps 

I eat really light now that I'm 135 pound lighter with a calorie intake about 1,000 a day if possible. 

I'm still portion controlling and if I crave it I go ahead and have a small bit of it and most of the time that is all it takes is just a bite! ...LOL

I just want to encourage you ....Don't give up! 

It might be hard to stick with it but you are Winning with 

The Winning Life 2k2k

SUPPORT

Hello & Welcome to My Blog: 

If this is your first time hanging out with me let me say "Thank You" 

for taking the time to read, how things are going with my weight loss Journey! 

Today, I'm going to talk about SuPpORT! 

There is no way I could have achieved so much without my Team these people holds me accountable for my action with food, my desires to quit and throw in the towel, and my lack of exercise. 

Your support team will Never go against your WILL!  

They will challenge you, they will motivate you and most of all, when you fail they encourage you to keep going and love you! 

My Team is made up of group of people that includes but not limited to 

My Doctor's, My Husband, My Children, a few friends and most of all ME! 

All of these people play a intricate part of my success so far, my Doctor see's me on a monthly bases to make sure I'm sticking to the plan they have laid out for me concerning calorie intake and burnout calories. Although, I never had weight loss surgery it is best to have someone that assist in your health care needs. 

I'm going to sum up the next group of people is my immediate family, they truly hold me tight and wishes the best for me and I can feel and reciprocate that love right back to them. They tell me the truth regardless if it hurts or not but also Love me enough to explain and motivate me to try harder the next time. Never and I mean Never let me give up! 

Few Friends, and I mean few, remember when I first began, I think I said this in an early post but I'm going to say it again. I had people that influenced some behaviors with my first set of weight loss goals and because of the negative influences and messages I received when I should have dominated the first set of goals I fell short because of it. I did lose a substantial amount of weight but my ultimate goal I fell short and never still to this day haven't made it back there just yet but I'm getting closer everyday. This time around I only surrounded myself around all of the positive people in my life and got rid of the negative people that thought it was something wrong with losing weight and living a healthier and prosperous life. 

Lastly ME! I had to learn to love me and everything about me. I had to love every flaw that I saw, especially in my heart, my mind and my body. I had to realized that the choices I have made throughout my lifetime was all on me and no one else. I'm so proud of where I came from and super proud of where I'm going. 

Today I'm in a much better place, I'm happy, I'm gentle, I'm loving and most of all I'm health and Whole! Nothing better than being Whole and One with yourself! It took several years and now I'm Winning My Life! 

IF you don't remember anything I say today, keep these nuggets: 

Surround yourself with the POSITIVE PEOPLE IN YOUR LIFE! 

RUN FROM THE NEGATIVE PEOPLE IN YOUR LIFE! 

BE WHOLE WITH YOURSELF because it is ALL about YOU! 

You only have one life and life without your SUPPORT TEAM is Essentials Without them is No Life at all!

From 400 pounds - to be continue! 

Winning Life 2k20! 

Intervention

I'm falling, heck I'm failing! 

I believe it is a trap and I think it has a lot of consequences to follow what will transpire if I continue on this road. 

Everything in life comes with a consequence and right now, I'm still falling for some candy and although it has only 70 calories. I'm eating more than the recommended amount. 

I find myself not wanted to eat at times but I will turn to this particular candy for the meal I should had so I'm thinking and it couldn't be but I think I'm right! 

I also must admit today, that I'm even falling for processed meats such as, ham & cheese loaf, smoked turkey. I was told that smoked turkey was good for me. 

I really believe it is the white bread is what is my bigger problem. 

I think the white bread is making me feel sluggish and making me feel really tired by the end of the day. 

My lunch is super early in the morning can you say 9 am and I would have just eaten breakfast around 7sh and not really hungry at all. I have turned to those processed meats to keep me in the loop instead of a protein shake. I'm sure that is what I should be drinking but I wanted some real food and this is all I can get and bring back with me during the time period that I'm granted from work.

What should I do? .............I need an I-N-T-E-RV-E-N-T-I-O-N!  

I think I'm going to change my bread selection and see if that makes me feel some better because it is a strain on me in the afternoon after work to get moving to exercise but once I keep moving it is the best choice I could have made. 

on the other day.............Looks like this: 

My morning meal is a bowl of oatmeal with 2 boiled eggs. 

My lunch is mainly a sandwich with mayo and bread. 

My dinner is suppose to be a protein shake but lately I admitting today that I have been eating past 6 P.M. 

Although, I'm not having any problems or any weight gain but I know I will! 

I went running after a long and dog tired day and I hit all my goals! 

I stepped out and got busy and it was a big success.........I will keep you posted on what will be New! 

I need an intervention!

 

Small Accomplishments

I'm super excited because I'm able to see my results of my hard work paying off! 

I haven't stepped on the scale in about a week or so but my clothes are telling me the story. 

I was introduced  to an APP that I was able to get on my phone called C25K!

( remember I'm not a doctor and I'm not telling you to try it and I'm not selling the app but just sharing my information)

I was afraid at first, a little skeptical but I decided that I would give it a try. Once I started in early August I could only run about 2 mph and that is with alternating with a walk 5 minute walk for a duration of 20 minutes. Let me show you what I'm doing now! 

It rained Friday, October 11, 2019 and that Saturday it was really cool and the weather has just been so beautiful and this is what I ended with! Do you see this I went from 2 mph to 5.2 mph and I'm doing this in 90 minutes for intervals of 6.

I'm so Proud of myself and it is working for me, I purchased a dress that I decided to wear and it was a perfect fit! 

I'm well on my way to the Winning Life 2k20! 

Conquering

Hello My Winning Life Family and Friends

I'm so excited because this time last year I was knocked off my feet and was in the hospital, eventually sitting at home under doctors orders and feeling the sense that I was losing my quality of life. 

If you have read my earlier post you will read that story but today is about 

~Conquering Life and I'm Celebrating Life!~ 

Today, is October 3, 2019 and I'm better this time than I was last year!

I'm 25 pounds smaller and I'm not just walking but I'm running too! 

I'm so proud of myself, I'm keeping close to those calories of 12,000 and I'm not just watching what I eat but I'm doing it all in moderation! 

As of Sunday September, 29, 2019 I'm officially 243 pounds and I'm on target! 

No, and let me Repeat!!!! NO, I didn't have the surgery and after some training and guidance from my support team members I'm still doing it all natural way. They are very supportive and remember they will stand with me even if I had tried but I called it off because I know that this is much better for me and it is a lifestyle change and I did not get big overnight and I recognize that it is a process that will take time but I'm more than half way there.....to my ultimate goal! 

I couldn't be more proud to know that for a whole year standing still and only losing a few pounds and gaining them back or just losing a few inches that I was really close. 

I'm keeping close tabs on the 12,000 calories but most of all I'm staying active more now than I did at first! I can do it and I will continue to do it and you can too! 

The Winning Life 2K20 still standing, still Strong! 

Pains

Body Pains

I  have hurt myself and I don't know how I did it! 

All, I know I was jumping rope of Monday because the forecast was set for rain that afternoon after work and I don't really like going to the gym because so many people are waiting for equipment so I turn to nature but when nature is not being nice to me I enjoy jumping rope. 

Well, as I was saying I finally came to a place of rest and once I decided to bend this knee of mine just a little more to stand up a sharp pain hit it. I have bathed it in Epsom Salt Alcohol and Ben-gay trying to get everything ready for today. 

It has felt better but I've had to alternate pain medicine today to help me manage so I can stand without pain. 

I'm not stopping just slowing my roll until I can it heals a little better it does feel like I have twisted it but I'm not going to make a bill for this I will wait this one out.

I think I'm going for a slower walk than my usual run today until it heals in its entirety! 

I can't wait to get my protein shakes back started I have missed them but I'm not over eating either. 

I will get to see what tonight hold as far as pain and I will hit you back tomorrow on the 

Winning Life 2K19   

Truth

Telling the Truth 

I  was sitting home talking to my husband and he was talking about how I keep moving even though I'm tired and I'm need to be in bed but instead of just getting in the bed. He see me put up a fight not to do the old things I use to do! 

See, when we first got married, I would be so tired from work that I would come home take a hot shower and crawl into bed and go to sleep. He would cook and wake me once dinner was finish and let me know it was on side of the bed. 

Now I Fight!!!! I really Fight!!!! I work for a school district and my job is very demanding and I must be on top of my game but doing that sometimes causes me to be mentally tired. 

My Husband said something to me on last night that was so meaningful..... 

You Worked Hard to get that Weight!!!!! 

                                              You have to Work Hard to Keep It OFF!!!!!!!!

                                                                                          AND you know what? He was so correct!  

Although, I didn't really noticed that I had worked hard to put the weight on over all those years but I didn't do anything either to make sure it wasn't on my body too! 

I ate what I wanted and never cared about the consequences it was doing to my health and to my body! 

I have finally unlock my mystery and I'm working on it everyday. Yes, again you will hear me say, that I work at it every day because it is a struggle. I have to chose wisely everyday what is the best things for me to eat. 

Lately, I have needed a light in color drink because I have been having trouble with my stomach and my stress levels has been really high since school started back in session. 

I literally run, jog, jump rope or just dance around with high intensity to make sure my heart rate is up to make sure I'm doing my part to ensure I'm not gaining and that whatever I'm eating that I'm burning more than I'm eating. 

I keep it real with me and I don't allow others to dictate to me concerning my health! 

Be Good to One Another The Newer Winning Life 2K19 Signing Out! 

It's a No Go!

I'm sure you thought I had given up on weight loss completely but I come to let you know that I haven't and I must say, I have missed telling my story!

My struggle for complete and total success story is coming and trying to overcome some battles within! I wouldn't believe that I have to work twice as hard now to finish getting the weight off and I must admit I wasn't ready mentally for that.

My mental state as of present is positive and can't wait to continue to the next chapter in my weight loss. I'm getting a lot of tips from my husband, my son and others that knows you have to work extra hard to accomplish what I'm trying to do!

I welcome you to come and go with me on this journey and I promise to stick with it and do my very best to conquer my fears and meet my expectation.

I welcome you to cry, and get stronger with each passing minute that you are working on the new you as I work on the new me!

I welcome you to change your diet and see your physician to monitor your success. I welcome you to struggle and feel as though you are not getting lighter but you feel larger. I welcome you to work out twice a day. I welcome you treat yourself and not think that it is all work and no play you can have what you want just in moderation.

I welcome you to have the experience of a lifetime with a lifetime of change and commitment!

The Winning Life on the road to 2020!

I Got this and You do Too let's do it together!

I will see you soon!

The Winning Life on the road to 2020 is in it to Win! 



CRAVINGS

Last Night cravings was terrible! 

I didn't over do it but heaven knows that I really hated to do it! 

I'm on this 1,200 calorie diet and on yesterday I didn't meet those goals. When I got home it was late and I don't like eating after 6 but for some unknown around 2 AM I was so hungry that I had to get up and feed that craving. I didn't eat much just enough to pull the hunger off my body.  I had a 1/2 of boneless Teriyaki chicken and one small spoon full of progress chicken noodle soup. I drank a bottle of lemon flavored water and I was able to lay down and go back to sleep. 

I don't think I harmed myself to bad seeing that was really light! 

I realized that if you don't eat the proper amount of food that you will result in eating a very late to early snack morning snack. 

Today will be better as far as making sure I eat the proper amount of food. 

I will continue to work out hard like I have in the past couple of weeks but I will not allow my cravings nor not eating enough to tackle me! 

I'm Living 

12 pound down! 

The Winning Life 2019